In memory of our dear departed

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Dear Jesse, Thinking of you every day and today, the 30th, you would have been 30 years old. Sunflowers for you, love forever,
Mom and Dad
Tallahassee, FL, June 30th, 2009 at 12:36 (EDT)

When thinking of you it's hard to find words to explain the overwhelming emotion that is felt, it's a whole mix of things. I just hope that you know that you're thought of, celebrated, and so very loved. Happy Birthday beautiful one, you are missed more than one can imagine. Love Eternal Jesse,
Misty Dawn
Flatwoods, KY, June 30th, 2009 at 11:11 (EDT)

Seven years have gone by and I cannot say I love or miss you any less, only more. The tree I planted in your memory in mom's yard bloomed for the first time just a week or so ago. Delicate soft white blooms with pink tips, it made me smile. You always made me smile and you still do. Love Eternal Jesse,
Misty Dawn
Flatwoods, KY, June 18th, 2008 at 16:18 (EDT)

We have your candle lit and placed another one besides it today. The crystal angel candleholder that Misty sent with flowers many years ago. We miss you greatly and know you're with us.
Love, Mom and Dad
Tallahassee, FL, June 18th, 2008 at 16:08 (EDT)

Happy Birthday to one of the most beautiful people I have ever and will ever know.
I miss you more than I ever thought possible.
Love eternal Jesse, love eternal.
Misty Dawn
Flatwoods, KY, June 30th, 2007 at 14:18:22 (EDT)

It's hard to write words on these days.
We brought large sunflowers for you today.
Our friends, Candace's family brought flowers for you today, too and has a candle to bring us.
You are always a part of our lives.
Love,
Mom and Dad
Tallahassee, FL, June 30th, 2007 at 12:08 (EDT)

We keep a candle lit every day by your picture.
We placed white roses where you rest and will come again soon on your birthday.
I think you were there on Michael and Lynnae's wedding day on the second of this month, where you cleared the rain just long enough for the ceremony and photographs.
You are always with us and hope you know we are always with you.
Love,
Dad and Mom
Tallahassee, FL, June 18th, 2007 at 21:51 (EDT)

I was looking at your photos today, smiling with a tear in my eye at just how beautiful you are. How beautiful we were together, how beautiful it felt to be loved by you. Six years now and it doesn't seem any more real than the very first day. You enter my mind multiple times a day, often with a big smile (I was just thinking of quad kissies the other day, it made me melt), sometimes with a tear, and others with wishes that unfortunately will never come true. Where ever you are right now I pray that you are smiling from ear to ear, that your heart is full and your mind light. I pray that you know just how much you impacted my life and I'm sure, the life of many others. I pray that you know that you are loved beyond belief. Words cannot express how very loved and missed you are Jesse. Love Eternal.
Misty Dawn
Flatwoods, KY, June 18th, 2007 at 07:18:50 (EDT)

Hi Jim. Photos i received. Thanks
Mikle Jakson
Tokyo, tx Monday, June 04, 2007 at 16:35:46 (EDT)

Never a day goes by without thinking about you. Forever loved and missed. June is Jesse's month and on this last day of it we've brought you roses on your Birth Day.
Mom and Dad
Tallahassee, FL Friday, June 30, 2006 at 18:42:23 (CDT)

Never a day goes by without thinking of you. You are missed and loved forever. June is Jesse's month and on this last day of it, we'll lay white roses for you on your birth day.
Mom and Dad
Tallahassee, FL Friday, June 30, 2006 at 10:25:55 (CDT)

I miss you more than words could ever say, and love you that much more. Today and everyday you are remembered, loved, missed, and prayed for. Love Eternal dear one, love eternal.
Misty Dawn
Flatwoods, KY Sunday, June 18, 2006 at 05:05:26 (CDT)

Your candle is lit everyday and Nicky is with you now. So many wonderful memories when we all hang the ornaments on our Christmas tree. Mom is here and was able to see Mike propose to Lynnae tonight after dinner and give her lovingly selected ring. We all miss you dearly and love you forever. Forever, Mom and Dad
Mom and Dad
Tallahassee, FL Sunday, December 25, 2005 at 22:39:57 (CST)

Merry Christmas.. you are so very loved and missed. Always in my thoughts and prayers. Love Eternal beautiful one, love eternal.
Misty Dawn
Flatwoods, KY Sunday, December 25, 2005 at 05:18:28 (CST)

Thinking of you as always today and all days. I laid two roses by your tree and said a few words yesterday, I hope you heard them. Life is changing so fast Jesse, I wish you were here with us to watch it all go by. I hope you'd be proud. I miss you more than words could say. Love Eternal.
Misty
Flatwoods, KY Friday, July 01, 2005 at 17:19:51 (CDT)

Hey there, Jess! Even tho we didn't spend a lot of time together, I think of you every day. I wonder what your life would have been like had you and Misty made tracks up here, in this little slice of laid back heaven. I see you in so many of the people here. Life is odd, isn't it? I really miss your little email notes, and your silly quips. In fact, I will always think of KY as KY Jelly, thanks to you! Happy birthday, Jessie. You're always in our hearts. With love-
Laura
Spokane, WA Thursday, June 30, 2005 at 20:53:35 (CDT)

Think you of everyday, it seem like only yesterday we were playing blocks with CB.
Billy
Ashburn, VA Thursday, June 30, 2005 at 19:52:58 (CDT)

We think of you all the time and especially today. We light a candle for you everyday by your picture. We miss you terribly. Love Always, Mom, Dad, Mike and Nicky
Mom and Dad
Tallahassee, FL Thursday, June 30, 2005 at 19:26:46 (CDT)

Jesse darling: We cannot believe that all this time has passed. We miss you so much. Your family has grown. Your cousin has a baby boy who is now two years old. You would love him. He is so funny. We love you.
Rick and Irene
Oceanside, CA Saturday, June 18, 2005 at 16:02:54 (CDT)

Missing you this Christmas, we remember all the wonderful times we had with you. Love Forever
Mom, Dad and Mike
Tallahassee, FL Saturday, December 25, 2004 at 23:14:45 (CST)

Jesse our darling boy: I woke up a few nights ago thinking about you and wanting to tell you how much we love and miss you. I was remembering how you and Mike were teasing Ralina and me when you were little - following us around with a camera and taking pictures - I think it was a video camera. It was a wonderful Christmas. Your Uncle Rick is out surfing right now and talks in strange "surf speak" such as "hang ten" which he would no doubt tell you, but I know that he would, as do I, tell you how much he loves you. I know that your darling Grandma Beth and you are having fun in heaven and that she is telling you her usual jokes. Your cousin now has a baby boy who is almost 18 months old. I know you can see him and are laughing at his tricks. Your loving Uncle Rick and Aunt Irene
Rick and Irene
Oceanside, CA Thursday, December 16, 2004 at 13:07:35 (CST)

You are loved, cherished, remembered, and missed on this day and everyday. Love Always, dear one.
Misty Dawn
Flatwoods, KY Thursday, December 09, 2004 at 08:28:17 (CST)

A white candle glows and illuminates your face On our hallway table, we daily pass your place. Never forgotten and soulfully missed, Remembering your tender heart and sweet face kissed. Love always, Mom, Dad and Mike
Mom and Dad
Tallahassee, FL Wednesday, June 30, 2004 at 21:21:09 (CDT)

Happy Birthday Darling, we all miss you so much. Love Eternal
Misty Dawn
Flatwoods, KY Wednesday, June 30, 2004 at 15:34:25 (CDT)

It’s been three years, over a thousand days since I’ve seen that beautiful face, and sometimes it’s still hard to believe you’re gone. There are times when it seems unimaginable that such a beautiful soul had to leave, and the pain is just too much. After three years there are still tears, but now there are also smiles. Memories of you bring the most bitter sweet tears and smiles imaginable. Remembering your kindness, your silliness, your charm, it’s a blessing and something I’m so thankful to have. I struggle with two strong emotions, the fact that we lost you, then the fact that we we’re so blessed to have you while you were here. For so long I thought those two emotions doing their dance would tear me apart. For some reason I didn’t think it was right to feel them both, now they coexist. Everything felt so lost for so long, now your love and memory exist inside of me, those things will never depart. Today I want to say Thank you, once again for giving me and so many others a piece of you. Thank you Jesse for who you are and thank you for teaching me the hardest and most beautiful lessons in life. I pray that you are safe, happy, warm, and are feeling this love that we all have for you, for its perpetual my dear. You are missed so very much. Love Eternal
Misty Dawn
Flatwoods, KY Friday, June 18, 2004 at 00:56:33 (CDT)

I was blessed to have been given the chance experience your friendship, brief though it was. You impacted my life tremendously Jess, and sometimes I wonder if you knew that. I miss your fun loving spirit, the passion that was in every breath spoken about those you loved, your free mind, those soulful eyes that knocked me out of my seat the first time I saw them, and most of all your delightfully deranged sense of humor! I’ve been avoiding this post for two years now. Because I always thought that if I posted something, it would be final, complete, no turning back and id have to admit that you were actually gone, and that I’d have to say goodbye to such an amazing person. I just wasn’t ready or willing to say goodbye to you Jesse. A few weeks ago as I was rummaging through some boxes, I came across a poem tucked inside a bunch of useless crap I wound up throwing away. As I read it I thought of you. Do not stand at my grave and weep, I am not there, I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glint on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain. I am the gentle autumn rain. When you wake in the morning hush, I am the swift, uplifting rush of quiet birds in circling flight. I am the soft starlight at night. Do not stand at my grave and weep. I am not there, I do not sleep. Do not stand at my grave and cry. I am not there, I did not die! Mary Frye (1932) The Snow, the Starlight, the Birds, and even Rain **wink wink** I know I didn’t find that poem on accident. I’m not surprised, you’ve sent be subtle reminders in the past. But something in the poem made me feel OK, and ready to come here, but not to say goodbye, but instead to say Thank-you. Thank-you for reminding me that your never to far away, always in the back round sending “I love you’s”, “I miss you’s”, and “I’m still here’s” to those that carry you in their heart. Thank-you Jesse, for every kindness, for every smile, for every moment you shared with me. I am forever moved by and great full for our friendship. I very much look forward to your next reminder you UnShexy fool… Peace Love Empathy
Rainy
Chicago, IL USA - Wednesday, June 18, 2003 at 04:02:30 (PDT)

Everyday I wish that I could change the past. I fancy you being alive, what life would be like, how different it all would be. It usually goes on for hours before I find myself dwelling on how unjust it all is. How wrong it is that such a beautiful, vibrant, productive life was stolen. The fact that you wanted so much in life, and it was finally all coming together, then just washed away.. it angers me to no end. I cannot find the words to express my emotion when I think about how you came into my life so quickly, and left much of the same way. It seemed like I had just met you before we were living together and was madly in love, it seemed like we had just barely begun when you were ripped away. I know our souls met long ago, I have a feeling we’ve danced many times, but it’s always too short. Life’s too short; you taught me that lesson in life and in death. I think of you so often, I’ve wondered if you’ve known. Like when the wind kisses my cheeks, it leaves me smiling, hoping you’re there. Hearing the birds chirp loudly, watching them as they move with so little effort, it seems as if they know not where they’re going when they take off, but in mid-flight inspiration strikes, and they land. It’s much like you, you know. How you always found inspiration, and without thought followed it. I admire you so much for that, your lack of fear. I’m reminded of you when I see my nieces playing; they’re so innocent, happy, and carefree. I admired you for that too, so childlike, so pure. I used to just watch you all the time, it didn’t matter what you were doing I just loved to stare at you at your expressions. I believe sleeping was the most beautiful time. You’d always stay awake for a bit after I had fallen asleep, to keep my bad dreams at bay. Most of the time I would pretend to go to sleep, then watch you nuzzle up beside me, and drift off with that smile on your face. I adored watching your eyes move, your face change. I recall all of those special moments, where you’d tell me to “remember this forever, never forget how this feels”. The best was when we danced in the snow, I could never forget that moment, not in a million years. I talk to you frequently, never really knowing if you can hear me, never really knowing what to say, just rambling. I pray that you can hear me, see me, and feel me. Sometimes it’s just telling you how much I miss and love you, and that I hope you’re alright. Other times its anger and desperation, begging you to come to me, trying to wish you here. You know if I had to do it all over again and knew the outcome, there wouldn’t be a doubt in my head. I’d do it again in an instant, all the pain in the world couldn’t damper what we experienced together. In the same seriousness, if never getting the chance to meet you would bring you back into this life, there would be no doubts either. For you to be able to live out your dreams, for your parents to have their son back, I’d give my own life. This world needs souls as pure as yours. Its two years today, and I cannot say that I miss or love you any less, only more. Everyday I think of you, and everyday I am incredibly grateful for all that you gave me, taught me, and the way you healed me. Thank you for teaching me the meaning of true love. Thank you for showing me how to trust. Thank you for being such a beautiful person. Thank you for all of these grand memories. Most of all thank you for loving me, and thank you for letting me love you. You gave me countless things, words could never express how thankful I am, and now I don’t have the chance to repay you. I hope you know how much you’re loved, and appreciated. I wonder if you’re okay where ever you are, and if you’re loved there. I need to know that you’re happy and loved, there are so many people here that love you more than anyone could imagine, but I’m not sure that you can feel that. I pray to God that you’re not feeling any pain, only warmth and love. I pray that someone is holding you each night; I pray that your cup is perpetually overflowing. I pray that you hear me now; I miss you more than words could ever say. Love Eternal.
Misty Dawn
Flatwoods, KY USA - Tuesday, June 17, 2003 at 22:10:55 (PDT)

I miss getting the chap piss drunk. He was a calm sailor it's too bad his boat had to sink, I guess it really is the motion of the ocean that counts...
MistaBone
Kensington, NJ USA - Monday, May 12, 2003 at 14:22:49 (PDT)

Jesse, We all miss and love you very much.
Mom, Dad & Mike
Tallahassee, FL USA - Wednesday, December 25, 2002 at 07:52:02 (PST)

Two years ago today, I met your beautiful soul, standing at my door. And if time were our friend, today we'd be celebrating one year, as husband and wife. But, life had other plans for you. I hope with all my heart, those plans, they are making you smile so very bright, even though this situation feels so horribly wrong. I miss you Jes', more than words could ever explain... more than anyone but you, will ever know. Loving you, always.
Misty
Flatwoods, KY USA - Saturday, December 07, 2002 at 23:51:17 (PST)

Just had to say.. I miss you, so very much. Please be smiling sweetest one. Love Always.
Misty
Flatwoods, Ky USA - Sunday, November 10, 2002 at 04:17:59 (PST)

DEAREST JESSE, 23 YEARS FROM THIS DAY YOU WERE BORN TO US AND WE THINK OF YOU EVERY DAY. YOU ARE IN OUR EVERY BREATH AND HEARTBEAT AND IN THAT WAY NEVER GONE. WE BROUGHT FLOWERS TO YOU TODAY AND PLACED MY FAVORITE PICTURE OF YOU AND MISTY THERE, BILLY AND PEGGY SENT BEAUTIFUL LILLIES AND ROSES, CANDICE AND CATLYN BROUGHT YOU FLOWERS, TOO. THEY CAME OVER AND SPENT THE AFTERNOON WATCHING HARRY POTTER, AND CATLYN BROUGHT THAT SPECIAL TEDDY BEAR YOU GAVE HER. CANDICE BROUGHT A CANDLE WITH ROSE PETALS WITHIN THE BOTTOM AND IT LIGHTS THE HALL WHERE WE KEEP A CANDLE LIT EVERYDAY FOR YOU. LOVE YOU ALWAYS, MOM AND DAD
Mom and Dad
Tallahassee, FL USA - Sunday, June 30, 2002 at 21:08:11 (EDT)

Happy Birthday Shweetest Jesse, I really wish you could be here for all of us to celebrate you... But, I know you can't be, so I'm going to do my bestest to celebrate for you. Missing and loving you always. I hope its a great one, where ever you are. Always.
Misty Dawn
Flatwoods, KY USA - Sunday, June 30, 2002 at 02:15:44 (EDT)

I didn't know Jesse that well... I do know he made me laugh many a time. I pray most for Misty, that she will have strength... but she is strong, much stronger than I. Even though its been a year I know it can still be hard for her. Misty, I shed tears for you, dear sister... you, you're such a bright star yourself, your courage has amazed me. Shine on hon :*)
Heather (WanderinGypsie)
Johnson City, TN USA - Tuesday, June 18, 2002 at 11:36:14 (EDT)

Almost a year ago I said "He will always be in my heart and mind", and not a week has gone by where I haven't thought about him and smiled. We were like the two kids stuck in the back of the family station wagon on a long road trip. Constantly elbowing each other and screaming "MOM!" Misty was the mom saying "you two kids stop it or I'll stop this car and make you walk home!". He made me laugh so hard I was in tears on many occasions, and our battle of wits was a source of constant amusement for many on lookers. Jesse is such a bright soul, he was like a flash of light in a dark room. I owe so much to him, he brought the most perfect individual into my life. I can still hear him taunting me with a valley girl accent and laughing when I got mad. Love you like a brother Jes.
Ivy
San Antonio, TX USA - Tuesday, June 18, 2002 at 02:09:54 (EDT)

one year ago almost to the hour I was sitting on Amy's couch in missouri when I read it. I just sat there, not knowing what to say or do or even think. I was sad, angry, afraid, and confused all in the span of a few seconds and then everything seemed to go dull. Since then I've learned to look back to the time before that night, to all the good times. Now when I think of Jesse I just smile and am thankful to have known him.
Aaron
Kennesaw, Ga USA - Tuesday, June 18, 2002 at 02:02:01 (EDT)

One year ago today.. you departed. And one year ago today.. many of our lives got turned upside down. I miss you so much Jesse.. I can't say that a day goes by that I don't think of you. Praying that your smilin' somewhere, out there. Hoping that when my time comes.. I'll get to see that smile once again. SO much has happened over the past year.. If I tried to tell you I wouldn't know where to begin. I'm sure your watching it all go down.. somewhere up there. I still can't help but worry about you.. I wish there was some sign... to know that your happy.. and okay. Its strange the way life works.. some force bringing you here, both our lives becoming so full.. and then poof. I said on day one, I don't understand it, and still.. I haven't found any reasoning. I still wish everyday... that you could've stayed, not for me really.. just, to live out all your dreams. And yeah.. Im selfish.. I so want to watch you smile. But, wishes like this.. they dont come true. I tried to think of something to do for you today.. but Im finding not anything comes to mind that would sufice your memory. I think today.. I'm just going to remember you, and try to smile. And I'm going to keep my promises to you. Getting my life in order. Jes', darling.. I just want you to know, that I am and always will be so very thankful.. for all that you gave me, all that you taught me, and what we had together. You are and were such a huge impact on my life.. and God knows.. such a beautiful blessing. I'll never stop saying your name.. with smiles or tears, I'll never stop holding you up so very high, and trying to give life my best, just like you did, and wanted me to do. I feel like I should be saying so much more.. but my words are failing me. I know you know how I feel.. and I know that you can hear all these words that my heart won't let me say. Wherever you are darling, please, keep smiling. We all miss you so very much. I'll never stop loving and missing you Jes'. Eternally..
Misty Dawn
Flatwoods, KY USA - Tuesday, June 18, 2002 at 00:12:10 (EDT)

Dearest Jesse, This Christmas is hard without you, it is even hard to write something now as much as I want to. The Christmas Tree For Jesse We placed a small spruce Christmas tree for Jesse, for what would Christmas be without a tree? Atop were set two white doves, one for Jesse and one for Misty. One red cardinal perched below. In the past, I held a dead one in my hand, and took a photograph of its eternal sleep. When Jesse held one in his warm hands, it awoke and flew in graceful sweep. A glass angel with golden wings, kneeling in prayer over watchful things. A small brass bell that we giggled to ring, symbolizing the sound when an angel gets his wings. On December 8th two white roses with blue ribbon were set, the year anniversary when Jesse and Misty first met. Also placed, a photo of them kissing in a tender moment of love, while a lone dove watched perched on a telephone line above. A small computer hangs from Uncle Billy, below a brass guitar from Grandma. A ceramic plaque with angel rests at the foot of his tree from Lisa, Jim and Jeremy. Today we'll hang ornaments and light snowflake candles from Rainy. Jesse, you are sorrowfully missed, but have eternally gladdened many hearts. Love forever, Mom and Dad Christmas 2001
Mom and Dad
Tallahassee, FL USA - Tuesday, December 25, 2001 at 12:01:24 (EST)

Happy "nanaversary" darling. Missing and Loving you Always.
Misty
Flatwoods, KY USA - Monday, October 08, 2001 at 20:47:47 (EST)

I miss you. Nathan
Jonathan (Nathan)
Waycross, GA USA - Sunday, September 16, 2001 at 05:31:16 (EDT)

Two Months ago today, I awoke in your arms, hearing the words "good mornin' beautiful" fall from your mouth. Two months ago today, you were ripped from all of our lives. I Love you more today, than I did on that day, and the next, I will Love you that much more. Miss you that much more. Tears fall from my eyes, everyday, and smiles form everyday, all because of this love that you gave me, that we created. I try to find ways, each day, to honor you, our love, your memory. But I only find myself falling short. I have to admit, Im lost here without you. Each night I fall asleep, wishing to be in your arms, and each day awaking, expecting to see you, laying there, next to me. I want so very much, to be happy for you.. that you got to see the next plane. And I guess I am in ways. I just miss you so very much Love. I will miss you eternally, I know we all will. You left me with so many beautiful things Jesse Nicholas, and I am so very thankful. I know just how angry you would be, to see us all here, mourning for you. A death is not a loss, just that, there are so many things, that wont ever be now. So many things, that you wont ever get to do, all of us wont get to watch you do, or do with you. That saddens me, deeply. But, know darling, that I will love you, here, from afar, till the day I see that sweet face again. I will miss you, mourn you, wish for you, and hold you up so high, until that day, I can hold you in these arms once again. Please be smiling sweet one. We all love and miss you so very much.
Misty Dawn
Flatwoods, KY USA - Saturday, August 18, 2001 at 02:26:41 (EDT)

I went to elementary school with Jesse. I last saw him at a show in Washington DC. He was next to me in line and he remembered and reconized me after about 10 years of us having no contact with each other. And even with it being that I have changed physically a great deal since then. We laughed about memories of Dranesville Elementary. He was always extrememly nice and very talented. I know he will be missed forever until every last one of us gets to see him again.
Kelly
Herndon, VA USA - Sunday, August 05, 2001 at 22:26:21 (EDT)

I only talked to him once and it was a time when he was with Stella. It was about a year ago I guess and he was a delight to talk to. He was VERY kynd and I am praying for Stella and his family.
Danielle (DeadHead_Gurl)
Park Hills, MO USA - Thursday, July 26, 2001 at 16:54:39 (EDT)

i never knew jesse that well i talked to him a few times he helped me out when i was new to hippychat alought i didnt know him that well he was kind to me and he seemed like a very nice person hope you rest in peace in the other side good bye my friend
Anthony Harker (oldmanhippy)
United Kingdom - Friday, July 13, 2001 at 16:44:23 (EDT)

Thank you for having this memorial page, it is deeply appreciated and deeply heartfelt. There is so much to write about him that I can't begin, for we have 22 years of wonderful memories. The greatest is seeing him so truly happy with Misty, the only wish we had for Jesse wherever it took him. He was doing so well, finally enjoying life with a supportive relationship, good friends, good job, going to school, and finally putting some weight on those skinny bones with the help of Misty's Mom and Dad. Jesse will be with us forever, in the right way, forever loved by all his family and friends. Thanks.
Barbara (Jesse's Mom)
Tallahassee, FL USA - Friday, July 13, 2001 at 00:50:08 (EDT)

i'll see you there someday
amy
greece - Tuesday, July 10, 2001 at 23:49:24 (EDT)

Today is a very special day my darling.. Know that I am thinking of you.. and holding you so very high. Happy "Nanniversary" my love.. I miss you so much on this day.. and everyday. I will light a candle for you. I Love You Jesse. Misty
Misty Dawn
Flatwoods, ky USA - Sunday, July 08, 2001 at 04:19:25 (EDT)

I miss you Jesse ... I don't even know how to express my words right now, you are so special to me. I miss you.
zowwie
Vancouver, BC Canada - Thursday, July 05, 2001 at 18:26:19 (EDT)

i have known Jesse for many years and i am thankful for the time he was lent to us. no words are capable of expressing the loss this world has suffered. all who have been privileged enough to meet him have loved him; all those who professed otherwise have claimed so out of jealousy. Jesse is a teaching and nurturing soul, always placing others before himself. he is lucky to have friends as loving and open as all of you, even those who claim not to know him well surely must since no truer statements could be made of him than those written on these pages. i have a thousand memories of Jesse, and more than a tear for each one. i visit his place of eternal rest often and it is comforting to know all of you are there with me. my heart and prayers for strength and comfort are with Misty, the Psimas family, and all Jesse's loved ones in this time of sorrow. i gave my daughter the name Caeli which translates "Of Heaven," but i can think of no better phrase to describe our beloved angel.
melissa dixon
tallahassee, fl USA - Wednesday, July 04, 2001 at 16:42:50 (EDT)

This past weekend i heard the news and it brought tears to my eyes. Even tho we never met in real life, i feel like i have lost a close freind. Jesse and Misty were there for me when thigs weren't looking so bright. Out of all the people that have come through #hippychat, Jesse was one of the kindest and most down-to-earth. It saddens me that you never got the chance to come up to NH to hang out. All my love goes out to Jesse's family and Misty (please get a hold of me hon, let me know you're alright). The feelings i have now cannot be expressed with words on a page, so all i can say is..... I love you bro, and maybe someday we'll finally meet up "Where the winds don't blow so strange"
StealYerFace (Keith)
Goffstown, NH USA - Tuesday, July 03, 2001 at 18:01:16 (EDT)

I spent 3 or 4 days with the man. I learned alot about him and he learned alot about me. I met him through a friend, we went on a road trip together to a concert. I remember he had a nice car. He had direction in his life, he was very in love. I know you dont meet somone like him every day. He was a very concerned person. I could see that he cared about people in general. He wasnt the kind of person that could let somone sit in pain. Jesse, it was truly an honer and a pleasure to meet you. thank you for your words, your thoughts, and your memories.
Jason-Leland Richard Kruse
Circle Pines, MN USA - Tuesday, July 03, 2001 at 02:00:35 (EDT)

I didn't know Jesse very well as i'd only met him over internet chat, but just from that i could see he was a good person with a good attitude. And he was always willing to give someone a hand when they're in need, such as the many times he helped out everyone at xircn(chat network). i had only spoken to him a few times but i was shocked and upset to hear what had happend, i'm glad hes now at rest. R.I.P Jesse
Ross
Bedford, England - Sunday, July 01, 2001 at 08:30:09 (EDT)

Happy Birthday Jesse We miss you Love Always
Mom, Dad & Mike
Tallahassee, FL USA - Saturday, June 30, 2001 at 22:28:59 (EDT)

Happy Birthday Jesse Darling.. Your more than likely off on some beach in the other realm somewhere.. throwing stones at the waves. I so hope its beautiful my love.... I only wish you were here for all of us to celebrate it with you. :*** I love you darling.
Misty Dawn
Flatwoods, ky USA - Saturday, June 30, 2001 at 19:56:34 (EDT)

Jesse was one of the nicest people i talk with... i never met him in person however i knew he was really special ;) i didnt really know him well but i really miss seeing him around . :****( Regards Vex
Vex aka Richard R
Brampton, Ontario Cananda - Friday, June 29, 2001 at 15:32:53 (EDT)

greetings to all that are reading this ~* I didn't know Jesse as well as I would have liked to, but I was quite struck by his brutal honesty and strong opinion. The man may have made many people mad, but as I just told Misty a few moments ago, he was a misunderstood man because of his sense of humour ~ I know Misty quite well, and I know she was content with him and she assured me of his gentleness, and I always did (and always will) trust her ~ thus through her I can say Jesse is a very missed man, and my brother I love you ~* God take good care of my brother ~* (((*))) Love & Light to you all, daNNy
|5D|
howell, NJ USA - Thursday, June 28, 2001 at 23:54:58 (EDT)

I didn't really know Jesse well, or Misty - but I've been on hippy chat - off and on - for over four years - it's a warm and happy place, filled with genuinely good people...and, when I lost my Pixie last year, a place where I found comfort and support...Misty, the pain is so deep now, grieve fully. When it is time, your soul will begin to heal - you will laugh again, and you will live again...this time for Jesse as well, because he will see through your eyes, hear through your ears and love through your heart. Losing your soulmate is one of the worst things you can experience...it's been a little over a year for me and I still cry at night, but it does - slowly - get better. And, like my Pixie is with me, Jesse will always be with you... May you always be in light Jesse...you were well loved.... Strawberry....
Strawberry55 (Nimbus)
Toronto, ON Canada - Thursday, June 28, 2001 at 21:59:54 (EDT)

I did not get to know Jesse extremely well, but I got to know him well enough to know what a wonderful person he was and still is. The first time I ever saw him, I knew him as "Misty's friend". It was his first day in Kentucky and who would have known at that moment that he would touch my best friend and sister-in-law's life the way that he did. He brought Misty more joy and more peace than I have ever seen in all my years of knowing her. Jesse showed her how to live again. Jesse was a man of wisdom, and seemed to have a heart of gold. I pray for all of those who have lost their son, brother, lover, or very dear friend, but I remind them that this is not the end: it is only the beginning. Thank you Jesse for touching so many lives, and for making Misty the happiest woman in the world. We all know that you will be looking down always and forever. Rest in Peace.
rachel ferguson
flatwoods, ky USA - Thursday, June 28, 2001 at 01:44:46 (EDT)

Jesse was a older brother to me, dear god I miss him so very much. He will always be in my heart and mind.
Ivy (Catacomb)
San Antonio, TX USA - Wednesday, June 27, 2001 at 04:43:05 (EDT)

Jess, what can be said that will make it all seem the same as the days we would spend doing nothing?It's so hard to accept that you're gone,but you may be gone,I may not be able to see you any more but we will still talk.When I sit alone I know you will be right there to listen and be a comfort as you always had been.Jess you are one of my dearest friends and always will be.thank you for being my friend!I'll see ya when I see ya.
Bill Kinlaw
Atlanta, GA USA - Tuesday, June 26, 2001 at 10:25:12 (EDT)

Jesse was without a doubt one of a kind. He will be missed by many but not forgotton.
Mike
Tallahassee, fl USA - Tuesday, June 26, 2001 at 09:04:23 (EDT)

He only takes the best. You will always live in our hearts forever. I'm not saying "good bye" to you my friend, I'm going to say "untill next time". I know that we shall meet again, on the other side. That we will, my friend, that we will. Jonathan Williams (Nathan)
Jonathan Williams
Waycross , Ga USA - Tuesday, June 26, 2001 at 02:44:01 (EDT)

He only takes the best. You will live in our hearts forever.
Joathan Williams (Nathan)
Ga USA - Tuesday, June 26, 2001 at 02:39:41 (EDT)

Jesse Nicholas, We only spoke once or twice, but from our conversations I could tell that you were a man of wisdom, and spoke only truth. From those conversations, you commanded such respect from me, I shall never forget you. You are in Gods' care now, you have left your friends here on the planes of this earth, but I know that you will always be here with us in spirit. God Bless you Jesse, and may you rest in peace.
Roger R. Loxton (Polarbear)
Lymington, Hampshire, United Kingdom - Monday, June 25, 2001 at 05:08:00 (EDT)

Huwwo.. So I only met Jesse once, when he came over and I commented on his hair. I never said much to him but I was listening to him and my dad (Sunlion) talk and he was really kool. He encouraged me to keep doing well in school too, and I did! I knew Jesse was a good guy before I met him cuz mom (Starshyne) and dad talked to him all the time so it seemed hehe. I don't know anyone from #Hippychat really but apparently they kinda know me. I also knew Misty was a great person and I only wish she got a chance to see him one last time but I think everything will be okay, Mum went to Kentucky to help lighten the mood or something, and I asked her to do me just one favor; make Misty smile. This is getting long so i'm gonna go... Much love to Misty, and Jesse and I hope rests in peace!
Dew(Michelle)
Cincinnati, OH USA - Sunday, June 24, 2001 at 10:59:12 (EDT)

Even though I didn't have the chance to Talk to Jesse very much, he seemed like a Good guy........ Bro, you will be missed :( your Friend always ^Reg
William E McGee Jr. "^Regulator"
Cincinnati, OH USA - Saturday, June 23, 2001 at 15:40:19 (EDT)

well I hardly knew Jesse, I have had a few chats with him in query and he was kind, helpful, funny and a great guy to get on with. I am gonna miss you Jesse, But now you are in safe hands with god, I know one day we will meet again...
Dean Williams [eMeNcE]
Manchester, UK - Saturday, June 23, 2001 at 09:10:07 (EDT)

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some people move our souls to dance. They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom. Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon. They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints in our hearts, and We are never, ever the same. God allowed Jes and Misty to enter my life for a purpose, this I know in my heart. Both have touched my soul. To everything there is a season and it's hard not to ask why. I knew Jes for such a short time but he had a profound impact on my life. God calls his special people home when their work on earth is finished. Jes was very special and will continue to impact the lifes of all who knew him in real life as on irc. Misty, thank you for sharing all that we have talked about these last days. Jes would be proud of you. Thank you Jesse...please look after my Lesa up there will ya hon?...Misty girlie, I love ya. To all Jes' family and friends my prayers are with you as today you celebrate Jes' life and mourn his earthly loss and know that he is with us always in our hearts and memories.
laura parris
locust grove, GA USA - Saturday, June 23, 2001 at 08:33:55 (EDT)

I give you this one thought to keep I am with you still; I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glints on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain. I am the gentle autmn rain. When you awaken in the morning's hush, I am the swift, uplifting rush of quiet birds in circled flight. I am the soft star's that shine at night. Do not think of me as gone. I am with you still in each new dawn. - A Native American Prayer I wish all of you peace. In every ending there is a beginning.
amy
kansas city, mo USA - Saturday, June 23, 2001 at 01:53:18 (EDT)

I hardly knew Jessee that well - i only had one p2p chat with him but alls i can say is that he's a great guy in the hands of god now. Ima miss you man ... you was a good guy dude .. i hope you come back one day dude ... well i dunno what to say its kinda shocked me a bit too much ... well everyone liked you dude, you was popular and awesome ... take it easy up there man
NightFire
Essex, UK - Friday, June 22, 2001 at 15:41:00 (EDT)

I had known Jesse for almost a year now ever since I got into webdesigning. My life was falling apart a couple months ago, and I decided to talk to Jesse about it since he had helped me with all my other problems. Jesse gave me strength to hold on and showed me that my life wasn't as bad as I had thought. He made me feel so much better about my life, myself, and everything around me. I never got a real chance to thank him so much for the his help, friendship, and kindness. but now I am. Thank you Jesse for all of your help, your kindness, and best of all your friendship. I couldn't of made it through these last few months without your help. I will miss you dearly, and I hope I will see you again someday.
Andrea
Tulsa, OK USA - Friday, June 22, 2001 at 14:14:23 (EDT)

I didn't really know Jessee as I am new to Hippychat, but I greaves me to see such a young person leaving this plane of existence so young. My heartfelt sympathies go out to Misty and Jessee's families
Art Ouellette (philmcamera)
Toronto, On Canada - Friday, June 22, 2001 at 13:24:29 (EDT)

I can't believe this is happening, i tell myself on and off it's just a nightmare and i'll get over it! From the first day i saw Jesse in #hippychat on Webnet i had no idea who it was. Misty added him aop in the room. Jesse was very special from beginning when i asked stella who is this man! She replied, it's my boyfriend! As soon as i spoken stella about Jesse, i knew he was very special cause he reached Misty's heart. (A very magical girl who deserved everything) Jesse was the man who brough joy/laughter to her and everyone else who knew him. Jesse was a very well mannered guy who had a very good head on his shoulder. He wasn't ever afraid to voice out his own opinions. Whenever a fight occured... he'd never back away.. he once told me... we can't let this lameness go anymore longer in #hippychat since some demand not to be banned in the room cause of insults/op abuse or whatever. I asked Jesse if he would help me with some packet kiddies? He replied, yes what address is it ? I told him it was irc.mailchat.net. When the first day he came i opered him up because i believed in him. He is a very strong guy who doesn't let people push him around. We had arguments in the Official Administration Channel when the IRCop/Admins couldn't decide on what was gonna happen to the server and packet kiddies. Jesse expressed himself clearly in the channel he got booted/banned/killed. But that didn't stop him, it made him even stronger since he knew lashing out with anger or /killing spree didn't do no good. Nobody knew him, so they treated him like some user. Jesse earned his respect towards the whole Xircn staff when he showed the people he can do it. He was a big asset to the network, and i am glad that i had him as my op in #hippychat and fellow Services Administrator IRCop on irc.mailchat.net. Jesse brought joy on the whole Xircn network, he touched every soul that was moving *especialy* his dear loved one *Misty aka StellaBlue*. I've never seen such magical bond like those two had. Jesse moved to Kentucky from Florida just to meet this one special girl so he could live with her for awhile until he got his own place to stay. Jesse was complete he had everything he wanted, a brand new mustang (the best gf he could have ever had in his whole entire life & he had his job. I remember him pming me for a long time talking about his job and he was very proud. I know Jesse will have the best life right now watching over everything we do. He'll always be in my heart, since he touched mine with all that joy. Jesse Nicholas Rest In Peace (May god rest on your soul)
Alex
Aylmer, Canada - Friday, June 22, 2001 at 09:48:24 (EDT)

I Dont really know what to say, Jesse Was a great guy, I Only wish i knew him longer, from the moment i did meet him he was astounding, my words here cant express my feelings. His wit and kind, loving nature will never be forgotten, and i mean this with all my heart. He was a dear friend, and i will miss him, i feel for his family, and hope they know that he has gone to a better place, which im sure they do. Like i said, i never know what to say, i feel so much more than this mere paragraph, but im sure, that you will all know what. We will never forget you Jesse...
LJ- (^Z^)
Edinburgh, UK Scotland - Friday, June 22, 2001 at 09:22:56 (EDT)

Jesse..I knew from the first time I spoke with you...You would make an impact on my life..Your kind heart,caring words and at times...your sassy words Made me laugh...I always looked forward to logging on the server and knowing you was there..I knew my evening or day was going to be brighter because you always made it brighter no matter what had happened..Jesse was an inspiration to those who knew him..He will forever be in our hearts...I know he will always be in mine...He left us way too soon but we can always remember the times we had with him and love and friendship he showed us all...Jesse I miss you my friend...May you be with the angels and smile down upon us and shine your light over all of us as you always did and always will...I miss you and you will forever be in my thoughts,my heart and my soul....May you rest in peace
Ginger
Dahlonega, Ga USA - Friday, June 22, 2001 at 05:04:39 (EDT)

love to jesse... love to bloo. miss you more than anyone (but you) knows. talk to you soon...
opie
Ventura County, CA Earth - Friday, June 22, 2001 at 03:38:15 (EDT)

You left this place not even 4 days ago.. and it feels like a lifetime since Ive seen your face.. held you.. kissed you, watched you smile.. Oh how I loved to watch you smile. Jesse.. you came into my life, at a point where I was ready to give up, you held me up.. made me whole.. gave me my heart back. From the minute I saw those eyes, I was head over heels. Something cosmic happened that night, and it hasnt stopped since. I so miss you my darling.. I keep waiting by the door.. sometimes on the porch.. just to see you pull in.. walk up to the door.. and hug me :*** Ive waited every moment since you've been gone. You know Darling.. you gave me everything...and expected nothing in return. I thank you so very much, you have my heart and soul forever. NO ONE, and I mean no one.. will ever take your place. Your wish was for me to get better.. and I will honor you..to the best of my ability. I will honor you everyday in everyway I know how. You will always be my angel. I knew when I met you.. that God sent you here.. and now hes taken you home. I know things were bad for you.. before you came here.. and they left you with some blackness.. Im so very glad that melted away before you had to go.. now its all done shweetie. We found each other.. we found love.. we found life.. and we found happiness. Now you found your home. You will never leave me, I know this.. you will forever be in my heart, mind, body and soul. I will cherish what we have always my dear one. I dont understand this just yet.. why God brought us together.. then took you away, just when we needed each other the most. But, you told me a million times... everything has reasoning... and I guess Ill find it someday. My tears will never stop flowing.. and my heart will never stop growing, with love for you Jesse Nicholas. When I see you again.. can you please just hug me.. I just want to hold you.. see you smile.. "and you smile, you smile, and then the spell was cast.. and here we are in Heaven... for you are mine... at last"-Etta James At Last. You picked that as our song. Now I know why. Thank you. You have given me a lifetime worth of joy, happiness, and love. Im never going to let you go. I miss you so very much my dear.. please rest in peace. I will see you soon my love. Jesse was an amazing soul. The most wonderful, gracious, kind, loving human being I have ever met. He made my life have light once again. We were all blessed by his presence.. and forever we will be. He loved and lived life to the fullest.. even when his wasnt the best. I hope we all can do as he did.. not waste a single moment. I knew Jesse for 2 days before we met in person.. only a month before he moved here. Something brought us together. There is reasoning. I could say.. Ill never love another person again, this would be true.. Ill never love anyone like him again... never that much, never in that way. But.. it was all worth it. So very Much worth it. To any one who is reading this.. Go hug the people around you, let them know that they are loved. Please dont waste time.. its so very short.
Misty Dawn aka StellaBlue
Flatwoods, KY USA - Friday, June 22, 2001 at 03:17:10 (EDT)